And no this isn't a joke, I was 15/16 years old at a division 1 high school playing football looking to do nothing but go pro. 9/10 kids that were committed to a D1 university on my team were all on something or had already taken something to put their level of play at the collegiate level. Whether it was a pro hormone, steroid, or growth hormone, or all 3, we were taking them disregarding long term sides. Prime time on cycle I had Boise state, BYU, Michigan State, UCLA, University of Oregon, and Oregon State all coming to meet with me, watch me lift in the weight room and practice on the field as a freshman, I was 6'4" 349lbs running a 5.4 40 yard with beautiful maxes. Took one of the biggest L's of my life post cycle, developed gyno, started balding, and it royally fucked with my head emotionally. Not until recently have I bounced back from that fat L. I went to the endocrinologist and got blood work done. My levels have been normal for a solid year and a half now, and thankfully my balls didn't disappear. I've now graduated from high school early and I will be continuing my sports career at a community college to become eligible for D1 again, or maybe even the PAC pro league that might be coming up in 2018. Sorry for the big headache to you seasoned AAS users. I can imagine how stupid and annoying this is. All I'm looking for is help, any advice would be appreciated. I know I was stupid, I know this is stupid, trust me, im stuck with this weight on my chest to remind me.